With Eyes Wide Open

“Open my eyes to see the wonderful truths in your instructions.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭119:18‬ ‭

Ever miss something?

Like, really miss it?

Little: “Where? I don’t see it!“

Me: “There!” *points*

Little: “Where?” *looks in completely the wrong direction*

Me: “Look where I’m pointing. Do you see it now?” *points with more animation*

Little: “No! I can’t see it!” *continues to stare anywhere but where I’m pointing*

Me: “Look at me. See where my finger is pointing?”

Little: “It’s nowhere, Teacher. It’s not there.”

Me: *trying not to explode* “Stop. Look at me. There. Now do you see where my finger is aiming?”

Little: “Ohhhh. Now I see it.” *goes cross-eyed due to the sudden proximity of my trembling pointer finger*

I miss things too. And not because my eyes are shut, either.

No. My eyes are open. They just aren’t aiming in the right direction, and I miss the whole point.

Partly because I’m not paying attention to the here and now – I’m distracted by the tasks ahead, or thinking about the next step, or wondering how something hypothetical will work.

Partly because although my eyes are wide open, they are focused on my own point of view.

I so get what King David is saying in this verse.

“Open my eyes…“

Not as in my eyes are squeezed shut – more like my eyes are open, but I’m not looking where you are pointing. I’m not taking in information. I’m not processing what is before me. My mind and heart are divided and I can’t focus on the central issue at hand.

See, there are wonderful truths in the Bible. I’m loved. I’m accepted. I’m valued and seen and known and a part of a global kingdom-building enterprise. I’m a child of God by faith. I’m beautiful. I’m somebody worth loving.

But I also am flawed, and need to come to grips with that. I need to make amends when I have made a mistake that hurts another. I have a responsibility toward others and the environment. I need to contribute.

Sometimes, my skewed view of myself gets in the way, and the truth becomes elusive, something I try hard to see but am looking in the wrong direction entirely. I may resent some of the instructions – love your enemies? That’s tough. Forgive seventy times seven? Not practical. Be generous? But I worked very hard to earn that money!

Which is why I need to foster the attitude that will keep my eyes wide open. I need to keep short accounts and always align myself to the truth, not what I feel at the time or what the media or pop psychology says.

It takes dedication. Prayer. Open eyes and a neck that will swivel and bow.

Because the truth is what I need.

You need it, too.

Open your eyes to the wonder of God’s truth with me?

Father, our senses and selfishness lie. They twist the truth to make it fit our own views and lead us off base if we aren’t careful. Remind us that Your words are pure and good and true – and that when our ideas clash with Yours, ours should submit. Open our eyes to the beauty of Your regulations. Amen.

Published by melodylowes

I am actually a bit of a mess. But in the mess, I’m finding security in knowing I am chosen, I am forgiven, and I matter. After uncovering a history of abuse in my past, I have done a lot of healing - and writing is one way I can invite you deeper into your own healing journey! I write devotionals about the complicated thing called life at growing-in-grace.ca, and my poetry is stashed at melodylowes.com. Pull up a chair and a coffee or tea and lets grow together!

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